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  1. Was in Lockdown; Now on Stage

    Thursday, April 3, 2025

     


     








    I’ve been in my own lock-down of sorts.  No cable, no internet, no landline.  Couldn’t see or answer emails or look on-line for gigs.  Couldn’t attend the poetry workshops I’m part of on Zoom.  Couldn’t post blogs.  No virtual auditions.  No television.  I realized how one could actually go crazy in solitary.  I was able to get incoming calls, thankfully.  Of course I can go outside; I’m not in jail.  But compared to having access to everything, it felt like just a taste of lock-down (without the hostile cellmates or spouses).

     

    Then my buddy/brother-by-choice came to my rescue with an antenna that allowed me to get some television air channels.  Though I couldn’t see Wheel of Fortune (which is my favorite game show), it was a big relief to get any channels.  I hadn’t realized how dependent I am on TV.  Without it, I am at the mercy of my thoughts which I have to sometimes battle.

     

    I then decided I’m going to get rid of cable, so my bill should be significantly less if I only have internet and landline.  I have to get my finances in better shape because right now I’ve been sinking.  My landlord (who has been patient with me) sold the building.  Now I have to get it right (paying rent at the beginning of the month).  Geez.  The new property manager called me and left a message about my March rent being late.  Lordy Lordy.  I returned her call and was relieved to get her voicemail.  I left a polite message including an apology.

     

    I could have used this time productively, but I rarely did.  Sometimes, I made myself declutter (Goddess knows I need to).  I found things, including poems I had written, that I hadn’t seen in quite a while.  I also filled two bags with clutter to get rid of.  Those moments felt victorious.  But much of the time felt like I was just so cut off from so much.  


    After falling behind on bills, it snowballed.  And it got harder and harder to get back on track.  I have spent the majority of my life living on the edge financially.  As long as I managed to scrape by, I didn’t let it bring me down.  I’ve lived through way worse than financial problems.  But now, it felt like I could lose my apartment.  I’ve lived here since I was 21 years old.  I cannot afford to live anywhere else in my city.  One room in someone’s house would cost more than my rent for this apartment.  I am entitled to more benefits than I have applied for, so I have to get on the ball.

     

    Another long-time good friend/angel on Earth came to my rescue with a loan of a month’s rent.  She has always been an amazing human being.  Many Pre-K kids in Brooklyn were lucky to have her for their first teacher.

     

    When I finally get my internet back, I’m going to have hundreds or thousands of emails to get through.  I look forward to seeing what I’ve been missing.

     

    Now, for good news, I am in Paul Hallasy’s Eat Drink Laugh show on Saturday, April 5th at 9pm at Pangea,  178 Second Avenue between 11th and 12th Streets, NYC.  $10 cover in advance; $15 cover at the door.  $20 minimum food/drink.  Food is excellent.  Laughter guaranteed!  I say this is a great event for a date   nothing better than eating, drinking, laughing, noticing what makes the other laugh (you learn a lot from that), and taking it from there.

    https://cur8.com/23871/project/130494

     





    UPDATE:  I'm back and got rid of 723 emails!

    Hope to see you and hear you laughing on Saturday night.  It's always a good show.

     

     

    Loads of love to CGG-M ❤❤❤

    Mindy Matijasevic

    March 2025