Panic, Hope, & Waiting

Readers, if I haven’t expressed this lately, let me say now that I appreciate your interest very much.  Each time I blog, I can see the number of views, and I thank you.

A couple of days ago, I learned that my unemployment benefits are over.  

I had misunderstood when that was going to happen.  But now it’s here.  I need part time and/or freelance work.  I am not totally panicked yet.

I had applied for an audition for a tv series.  I was asked to come in, and they had sent me sides (pages of the script), so I was able to prepare at home.  I felt ready to do my best.  I accept that the rest is out of my control.

I got to the building exactly on time though I had wanted to get there 

early.  There were a bunch of people outside.  I was informed that the person in charge was running late.  I know others were bothered by that because they had other commitments scheduled afterwards.  Personally, I was so relieved.  I love not being the late one.  I’d rather wait for the casting director.  I had hoped to get to a poetry reading afterwards, but I didn’t know if I’d make it.

While waiting, I saw and received hugs from two men I know from the 

entertainment world, and I met three women who I hope to remain connected with.  We waited, talked, shared, etc., etc.  When the director showed up, she was such a positive presence.  What a terrific spirit.  Worth the wait, in my opinion.

My audition went very well.  She asked me to stay and read for two other 

roles as well.  I was thrilled!!!  She gave me time to get familiar with the lines and come back in when I felt ready.  In the meantime, she was auditioning other people for many different roles.  I knew chances were getting slim that I’d get to the poetry reading.  A friend was the featured reader, and I wanted to support her, but it was looking less likely.

I read for the other two roles.  She gave me good feedback.  The timing 

would be Goddess-sent if I get cast in this.  It’s paid work.  It would bring me to a level where one is noticed for other opportunities as well. 

Before auditioning, I signed a non-disclosure agreement (and I’m not even 

an ex of Trump’s), so I can’t say what the show is or anything close. 

I’m going to try, after today, to not think about it.  I don’t know when 

decisions will be made.

Meanwhile, I have two more auditions coming up this week.  One is for a 

play I find intriguing but doesn’t pay.  However, a former acting teacher always told us that you get discovered from stage work, paid from film work.  The other is for a paid gig, but not as many days of work as the tv series I auditioned for and not as career-changing.  I don’t always have 3 auditions in one week.  Now that I do, I hope nothing conflicts with anything else. 

Oh, people!  I have difficulty going on in my life as well, including a new 

pain in my left foot, but I’ll leave this on a hopeful note.

Love to CGM!