She So Funny

Feeling some kinda way
In a Blues for Mr. Charlie
Or Dutchman kinda way
When you're trying
To not kill somebody -
Anybodies
Because of something said
So you paint the sky, sculpt,
Sing or blow a sax until it cries
Hurt into memory

I was in the company of aquaintances and got eyeball deep in my feelings.
"Principal?"
A one word question seared my soul. I had not said I had lines. I didn't even call it acting. I said I had spent a day walking around a cemetary and had used my car on a TV shoot.

Being an extra in a movie or TV show is a payday for me. I'd prefer to have lines and featured screen time, but I'm an extra by circumstance not choice. I'm background and grateful for a check.

"Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt." 

Astrology and phases of the moon aside, I cursed and spewed witty cutting retorts back at him,
in my mind, for days. Stung even more because it seemed no one else at the table even noticed.

"Principle?" The question came from a person for whom no audition is necessary. His roles, he stated several times, are always a direct call from casting.

I'll admit, earlier that day, I felt some kind of way when TMZ reported the insolent 13 year old 

Planets, stars or nah, being asked if I was a principle, on what was a background payday, just put me all up in my feelings.

"I'm an extra on the TV
If you blink slow you won't see me
I add atmosphere, my voice you won't hear
I don't make a sound
I'm background.
I knew making movies wasn't easy
But being an extra makes my stomach queasy.
Give me the chance to show some panache
Oh you want me to sit and be a silent bit?
I've studied Chekov, Chayefsky, Euripides
Bullins, Baraka, Aristophanes.
Oh how I've cried for just a few lines
Oh how I pray for just one word to say, but
I'm an extra on the TV
If you blink slow you won't see me
I add atmosphere, my voice you won't hear
I don't make a sound I'm background."

I wrote I'm An Extra several decades ago. It's nobody's fault that it still rings true.
I'm alright now. I talked myself off a ledge. I live to be an extra another day.
In fact tomorrow, on Power, me and my car will be background.

Thank you for your eyes on this page. Your support is appreciated. BTW, I"m seeking representation.


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