Though I had been feeling like I was dragging rocks inside, I managed to finish the school year at one job with a fun party and other good happenings. I'm glad about that. It helps to have cool co-workers.
Then without auditioning, I was offered a small part in a play by a woman who once was my director in another play. I agreed since I didn't have anything else going on at the moment acting-wise. I wasn't jumping up and down over the play, but it was acceptable. Then the same woman offered me the main role in another play. In that one, I play a different ethnicity. A whole new challenge. Acting definitely keeps life ever-reaching. Always new ground, new experiences. I felt good about being thought of even when I hadn't auditioned. Unfortunately, this is still the unpaid arena. I sure need that to change. I welcome change (and by that I mean big bucks).
For now, I'm in two short plays to be performed the last weekend in July, and two poetry readings in August. I have to fill in my comedy calendar.
I was playing a Yahtzee-type dice game on line. It's a 2-player game with a chat box. I have many of those games going on. Out of all of them, two chatted. One seemed sincere and polite and only spoke for a clear purpose, like to apologize for some game-related thing. The other, after the hellos, asked if I want to suck him. I asked if he'd like to be respectful. No apology from him. I forfeited the game. It never occurred to me that playing a dice game could be seen as wanting to suck a stranger. I was tempted to respond differently.
Do you want to suck me?
Ya know, I was sitting here wanting to suck something and just didn't know what. Maybe that's it. Maybe sucking you was what I wanted all along. Silly me for not thinking of that. Thanks so much for suggesting it and offering yourself so generously. Look at how well this is turning out. I could've never predicted. I thought I was just here to play a dice game. Who knew? Next time I start a dice game, I'll think twice. I'll think maybe I really want to go out and suck some stranger's genitals.
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Do you want to suck me?Thank you. That must mean you think I'm pretty. You're not alone. There are many men who have a hard time when they see a pretty female. They have to say something repulsive. Sort of like an eleven-year-old.
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Do you want to suck me?No thanks. I'm penis-free.
It's a wild world wide web
ReplyDeleteRhonda, thanks for reading and leaving comments. It's appreciated.
ReplyDeleteThe title of this piece is advice every ten year old girl should hear. It will make them women before their time, but on the other hand, it won't make them a disposable component to a random sex act.
ReplyDeleteWe need to be telling the little ones how smart they are and how strong and courageous they are way more than how pretty they are. It starts at "It's a girl!"
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