I felt so white at a show one night. I haven’t felt that white in a very long
time. 
You know when you get credit from another comic for
getting up on the stage with your “pearly white skin,” the comedy performance wasn’t
what was good. But of all the possible
adjectives in front of “white” like pasty
or chalky or pale or corpse-like, I
like pearly. That connotes something pretty. I like the phrase so much that I might use
it as a nickname or a pen name – Pearly White.
It sucked to be the weak link in a show. It hadn’t happened to me before. It happened this time. There wasn’t booing or anything, and there
was some laughter, even a point where I had to stop and let them finish
laughing, but in general, it felt difficult and was difficult. My performance paled compared to the rest of
the line-up. I am glad I hung in there
and ended shortly after given the light. I felt so bad though. I felt I let down the person who booked
me. Ugh. That feels shitty. He was kind to me when I told him that I was
sorry that I was the weak link. He
reminded me that he’s heard me be funny and that comedy is a muscle. So I had to hug him while I pouted.
I sat at the bar with a friend who came to the show,
and we watched the whole thing. I didn’t
feel envious of anyone else’s material.
What was the biggest difference was stage presence,
comfortableness. They had it and I
didn’t that night. My guest was someone
who once cast me and directed me in several videos of comedic sketches. She knew what I did wrong from the start, and
it had to do with body language. I am
glad I am able to hear real feedback at this point in my journey because it is
very helpful when the person knows what they are talking about.
I also had my own critique – I began my set sounding
memorized and didn’t really establish a connection with the audience. Without a good start-off, it was bumpy the
whole way through. My tone of voice was
not where I needed it to be.
As much as I typically do not enjoy comedy open
mic’s, I need to get to them and work it.
I need to be more out there in a number of ways.
Job people tend to think just the opposite.
I've been there quite a few times. You're in good company... and it happens to everyone. We learn the most from our shows that aren't our best... time to reflect, assess, & work on building yourself up... You're worth it!!! Great honest piece! ~Samantha
Thank you. That is really encouraging. Hug.
It's an occupational hazard. We experience it, learn from it & move on. Excelsior!
Thanks, Rhonda.